you? I? yo? ich? ek? 私は? hard working?, confident?, athletic? That is me! I think so? That’s how my friends would describe me….
Identity as Baloo would say is a bear necessity. I am not talking about the colour of your stripes, but intrinsically. I ask who are you behind closed doors! behind the glaring eyes of your peers, only judged by a pair of familiar features. A topic I find so difficult to illuminate, where questions lead to dry answers that only functions to stall your next question, lasting only so long before your appetite hungers for a Answer. Even from looking at your outer appearance, where you are born, you may struggle. I am of mixed race, born in a nest only to fall in another, a nest where they chirp a different tune, amongst those with larger wings, or brighter feathers. To find yourself in unfamiliar grounds can be testing. To be able to look into another person and see yourself, is community right? IT IS SOLIDARITY! IS IT SPARTA! I joke, but it is something of a warm fuzzy feeling, when you can melt into the people around you and feel as one.
So where then do I melt/ mix? the red smarties, the blue smarties, or do I go in the biscuit tin? then there is the questions of the bourbons, the custard creams, hmmmmm. I find it so ironic, a notion conveyed by a simple single letter, the letter ‘I’, the same back to front, upside down, you would be clumsy to misspell it, however I am not challenging your orthographic. I challenge you to define it! In a world so large and diverse, where its people, have little connection, believing in different deity’s, they wear different skins, see through different eyes, there tongue speaks another rhythm, there mind spins a unique web. A world where discontinuity patrols nations, we are the same!!! haha lost? We are the same in the fact that we are different! isn’t it wonderful! We have started in different places, walked the path in different shoes, at different times, but our aim is the same, the find out that person that walks your shoes, the meaning of ‘I’. I’m afraid you won’t find the answer reading this blog, or any other, but through this life you endure, the people you love, the passion that you will. The moments that carves your identity are not yours to choose, they turn the corners at any moments, needing no invitation. The decisions you make when your back is pressed against the wall. Those are the places where you will find your answers. Through chaos there is order. Through order there is chaos.
Soldiers have described that they change when they step into a war zone. I cannot begin to describe the feeling nor will I try. I do however envy these men who have found themselves on unfamiliar grounds. I wonder how I would act? knowing danger is tugging at my sides and temptation whispers into my delicate ears. How would you conduct yourself? How would you define yourself?
If you have managed to read thus far I congratulate you, but I have to disappoint you here, as this blog is merely another ‘staller’ producing more questions then it answers.
Yours sincerely Mr, Mr